And I've got to do something about it cos I don't want to give in! Yes I know I sound anorexic. Hahaha but it's a health thing not a vanity thing.
And when you get cravings you really just want to eat anything around you that looks tasty. Aaah.
Have..to...control...
It's like when Jason brought back those corn things from Indonesia. I wouldn't stop eating it but reminded myself not to get hooked cos it's from another country and I wouldn't be able to get it once it's finished. Food food food.
Double meanings.
8:15 PM
I realise that I think too much most of the time.
Maybe it's helpful to stop over thinking things.
4:54 PM
Monday, November 09, 2009
Give It Up To Me
I must say, going back sure is nostalgic. Kind of like a phew-i'm-so-glad-I'm-past-this-stage kind of nostalgia. The good kind!
I'm tired though - I've got a really really busy week ahead. Aurgh. That's probably why I'm not going to type much for this small post.
Ah wells...
Love will keep us alive...
10:41 PM
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Sis: I want to highlight my hair blue
Mom: Yeah! Add purple and it will be nice.
Sis: I was expecting a different reaction.
5:17 PM
Friday, November 06, 2009
I realised that this skin is really apt. The mood and everything.
I wonder why Poe was obssessed with death. I guess it's because he was kind of a psycho anyway - one that could write well though.
I've thought of death as an escape. An escape from reality, rather than an end to it. Maybe people need an escape from life and reality. I don't think I fear death if it happens to me. I only fear it happening to others around me.
'Why are you so morbid?'
I guess Vig would know.
Sigh. The weekend's here but I'm somehow not as happy as I thought I would be.
9:47 PM
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Without trust, closeness is impossible.
Sounds so simple and 'Duh-you-mean-you-just-realised-that', but it's in fact something that is so vital in human relations.
You can see my heart beating..
Anyway, I realised that it's nearing the end of the year. Wow. Time really does march past.
Thought of the day: Time.
Time as a theme is very interesting. It can become so-called a theme because of what we make of it and not because of what it really is.
What is time, really?
time(tm)n.
1.
a. A nonspatial continuum in which events occur in apparently irreversible succession from the past through the present to the future.
b. An interval separating two points on this continuum; a duration: a long time since the last war; passed the time reading.
c. A number, as of years, days, or minutes, representing such an interval: ran the course in a time just under four minutes.
d. A similar number representing a specific point on this continuum, reckoned in hours and minutes: checked her watch and recorded the time, 6:17 a.m.
e. A system by which such intervals are measured or such numbers are reckoned: solar time.
I use the term 'we' very loosely, so ok I shall use 'I'.
I like to see time as a theme - taking a physical appearance. And in this physical appearance would (Gary don't sigh) contain a hybrid of our past, present, and future.
It would be twisted, malformed and probably unrecognisable. I'm looking at time as a perception and not as an entity.
Just as the beat of the drum matches the rhythm of the heart. Plunge deep into the centre of the equilibrium and shatter the continuum.
We were kids.
'People only believe what they want to believe.'
'People fear the unknown. People laugh at the perils of others. People... are people.'
Only people who know me well will know when I'm bull shitting and when I'm not ;p
8:46 PM
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
I would say I'm intrigued by the advance of digital music.
Come on and evacuate
It's really a wonder what one can create with electronics.
Let's love Let's love Let's love Like we used to
The sound's all over me When you dance You dance cos you're free Free yourself from all the thoughts and perceptions stopping you it's all right
When you get down It's the only time To act like a fool And go all out crazy Trust me it's in the hips Move to the rhythm Own the beat
9:56 PM
Monday, November 02, 2009
Well well guess where I'm blogging from. Haha.
And yes I'm trying to keep updating my blog now. Somehow something inspired me to keep updating.
Today I got to thinking about life away from home. What my life would be like away from my comfort zone. And when I say that I mean Singapore.
Singapore is my comfort zone. I feel comfortable here and I am used to the culture. Yet somehow there's this dissatisfaction in me that craves experiencing life outside this comfort zone. Paradoxically, I have this fear of leaving this very cozy place that I have spent almost 19 years in.
The phrase 'almost 19 years' is a hint btw
Anyway, I am still undecided on what I want to do after I finish my time. I remember being really annoyed because I didn't know what to do with my life. I felt frustrated because I hate being in a dilemma. It is truly one of the worst things to be in!
Take me to a world, a different world Cross the boundaries Push the edge
My mom told me 'don't take life too seriously', yet somehow I can't help but wonder if I don't take life seriously enough. Mom was so worried for me cos she thought I was being overly sensitive. But the ironic thing is, I was upset precisely because I was not taking things seriously enough and not knowing what I want in life.
It's like this big loop that keeps going round and round.
Makes me wanna sing.
Maybe I think too much. I honestly think I do.
Yeah like heck you do
Yawn I think I shall go and sleep.
9:42 PM
Sunday, November 01, 2009
Ok I'm back! After about 2 months of not blogging.
And yes, as you can see I have reverted back to my poe skin. Unfortunately, I did something really stupid and forgot to save the one before.
Z.
Oh well. Anyway, here are some updates:
1) There haven't been that many updates because my life hasn't drastically changed. Even if it has, I probably wouldn't been typing this out.
2) Refer to point 1
So basically (to quote Bryan), I guess life is pretty much stagnant at this point. And I do feel less inspired than I was in school. (I'm really not sure why) It's probably because I haven't been studying much.
How ironic - I used to long for the days where I wouldn't have to study. This proves that my parents are right once again.
'You will treasure the times when you were a student'
'No la please!'
I guess the law compels me not to type certain things out as well. I therefore have to resort to double meanings and speaking metaphorically. Hahaha.
I guess that should keep my literary needs satisfied.
Want your Bad Romance
The funny thing is, I actually have a lot to say and I have so much on my mind but I just can't seem to sort it out into coherent paragraphs. It's kinda like during the A level period where your brain is just BURSTING with information that you have to sort of organise it as you write.
I remember something that Benny said to me when I first came to SCC.
'You're so artsy.'
At first I didn't know whether I should take it as a complement or not, but I decided to do so anyway. I guess it was because I never really stopped to realise the significance of art.
I wonder what life would have been like without art.
Without music, without colour, without creativity.
Without excitement, without difference.
Without life.
It's just like if how everyone behaved the same way and had the same personality. Goodness how BORING would that be.
So, to Benny if you're reading this: I'm glad that i'm artsy!
m)n.