Monday, July 14, 2008
Am currently doing history. I have to complete four full sides and it's really tough, especially with Southeast Asian history when everything is pretty straightforward and there's not as much to write about as International History.
I've been going through this weird emotional roller coaster lately. It's like I can feel happy for a long period of time, then feel stressed/sad/torn apart a few hours later. After that I will go back to being happy again.
I think my thoughts and emotions are just so messy and distorted. I feel myself being pulled in so many different directions and it's making me so... peculiar. I was quite ok a few days ago but lately it's been so crazy.
"Your eyes are full, full of the future of us The air changes as you look across at me in that wondering way It is as if I knew you before we spoke Do our hearts know something we don't? Conspiring, converging without giving us any say You sing me to sleep, talk down my walls Look through my windows as I wait You could be the thief I give the key to You're ruining me with secrets and gestures and looks With sonnets and second-hand books Playing the chords in me nobody knew how to play You sing me to sleep, talk down my walls Look through my windows as I wait You could be the thief I give the key to It fits in your hand like the water in rain It unlocks our two different selves and shows we are the same Rather than wait 'til I put me out for the taking You're breaking You're breaking into my heart and I'm letting you Your eyes are full, full of the future of you"
8:06 PM
