Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Wow, I just had a breath-experience just now.
Today I actually decided to embark on a health regime. After being unhealthy for so long, I realised the "error of my ways". Lol.
Anyway, that's not the important issue, though it was one of the factors leading to it.
Before doing my history tutorial, I wanted to de-stress. I was reading this article about the unhealthiness of stress and the bad things that it can cause. Therefore, I put on my earphones and started to listening to Enya, particularly the Lord Of The Rings Soundtrack song, May It Be.
So I was just lying down and listening to it, then I kept remembering Matheus telling me last time that Enya was "satanic" cos of the whole emptying of the mind thing, which I don't really want to elaborate on. The important thing is, that I was so worried about emptying my mind, that I decided to listen to relaxing Christina music, so I wouldn't have to worry about it.
I then selected "Your Grace Still Amazes Me" by Philips, Craig & Dean. I started listening to it and then I don't know why, I just started worshiping in my own way. It was a worship so different from all the past worship sessions that I went for in church. I don't know how to explain it, I could just feel the Holy Spirit moving in me, and it just felt so wonderful.
Not wanting it to stop after the song ended, I selected "When God Ran" by the same artists, and this worship was even better than the previous one. It was just so different and so moving. After the song ended, I just felt so refreshed and rejuvinated.
For a very long period of my life, I have felt very dry and "spirit-less", as though the spirit was not within me. God seemed so distant. I knew he was real yet I felt so distant from him. It was like, I didn't doubt his existence but I felt so far away. I only feared him in the unhealthy way, and didn't have any impactful prayer or worship experiences for quite a long time.
The worship I just had came so suddenly and so unexpected. I think it had to do with this morning. During Religion lesson, I wrote on the prayer request sheet for more faith and preseverence. I didn't really expect much, but my rejuvination came today!
Thank you to whoever it was that prayed for me. If you did pray for me, please tell me so I can thank you. Lol.
After the experience, I decided to quickly blog about it to share it with my dear readers :)
Well I never want to go back to being the self-righteous Christian that I was in my early sec days (Yes Matheus, I finally admit that you're right about that), telling people what to do and stuff. I think I focused so much on that, I drew more and more apart from God.
I sincerely hope that this rejuvination isn't a short term one.
I hope for this post to inspire anyone.
God really works in mysterious ways, he does things at his own timing.
Don't forget that!
:)
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